12 weeks Post-Op...Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

I remember about 6 weeks post op having feelings of regret about surgery. I was mourning food, feeling alone and all around just down. I was ready to get off the roller coaster ride of emotions and feel normal. We’ll I am so happy to say that I think I have passed the stage of mourning and feeling sorry for myself. I have just recently started to see changes in my body and I love it! It’s inspiring me to keep going and work even harder. I can honestly say now that this journey was the best (and very few) things I have ever done just for myself. Don’t get me wrong there are times my mind still wants to pig out when I have a bad day or tries to talk me out of going to the gym. However, for the first time I feel like I can do this!

Weigh in this morning wasn’t exactly what I wanted to see but it’s not getting my down. Last week’s weight was 222.4, today 220.6. A loss of 1.8lbs and a total loss so far of…

48.7lbs!!

I wanted so badly to hit the 50lb weight loss this week but HEY, there is always next week. J After two weeks of losing over 4lbs each week, I guess I was due a smaller loss.

Got a busy weekend planned…going to Meadow Lights tonight with the family (it’s a Christmas lights display with a train ride…my little guy is excited), a Christmas parade tomorrow morning (both my nieces are in it), a wedding Saturday evening.

Oh yeah…almost forgot!! A NSV!! I didn’t want to spend money on a new outfit for the wedding, so I raided my Mom’s closet. A 14!! That’s right I found a dress to wear and it was a 14!!! I told my Mom it had to be sized wrong…lol. I don’t care I’m wearing that 14!!

 I’ll post some pics next week.

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

11 weeks Post-Op, Thanksgiving and Pics!

So, I'm a day late for my update but it has been crazy around here. We had Thanksgiving at my Mom's house. I cooked my first turkey and it was delish! I ate turkey, ham, mashed potatoes, dressing, deviled egg, cranberry sauce...granted only about 1-2 bites of each. I was stuffed!

Here's a pic of my turkey. I'm having to hold it together, it was falling apart

My Mom, brother, sister-in-law and I ventured out for "Black Friday" about 7:30pm Thursday and got back at 4am Friday morning. So, I was like a zombie all day yesterday. And to top it off, By midnight, I knew I was getting sick. I now have a cold. This is the first time I've been sick since surgery. I want nothing but coffee...it sooths my throat. No appetite at all. Good in a way...bad for reaching protein goals. Fluid goals...not a problem.

On to the numbers...last week I weighed in at 227. Yesterday I weighed in at 222.4!! Woo Hoo!! A loss this week of 4.6lbs!! Which brings me to a total loss of...

46.9lbs!!!!

So, Thursday afternoon I did something I never let anybody do, take a body shot of my with my permission. I tried to find another picture as a comparison so I looked through and found one my husband took of me last Christmas. Here it goes...

 Christmas 2011  269lbs...NO ONE has ever seen this picture!

 Thanksgiving 2012  223lbs I actually posted this on my facebook!

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!!

10 Weeks Post-Op

This week I have felt so much better.  I was able to be more consistent going to the gym and I had better scale results this week…YAY!!! NO stalls. This morning I weighed in at 227.0 compared to last Friday of 231.1. So, I had a loss this week of 4.1 lbs. A total loss so far of…

42.3 lbs!!

I am inching closer to my goal of being in ONEderland by 2013!!! Sure hope I make it.

I also did so much better this week on the evil crunchy carb habit. Oh how I CRAVE salty, savory crunchiness. Some people say out of sight, out of mind. Not here…it STAYS on my mind but I say, out of sight, out of mouth!! hehe

Got a couple questions for my fellow sleever’s…

I find that I have weeks where nothing tastes good at all. I eat only because I have to. Then all of a sudden I will eat something and it tastes wonderful. Then maybe the next day or the day after I try it food again and YUCK. Does anyone else experience the taste bud crazies??

Also, while I am eating and then for about an hour or so afterwards I have this annoying gurgling sound coming from by throat and my esophagus. It can get a little embarrassing due to it can get loud. Anyone else??

Oh yeah….I’m so excited!! I’m going to see Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2 this weekend!! I can’t wait J

Hope everyone has a great weekend

9 weeks Post-Op...Gotta get it in gear!!

Not much to report this week, still having some of the same struggles. But trying to be more positive and just go with the flow. Had another (very) small loss this week…only .5lb. Yikes! I hope I am not at a stall!! A stall at this point is not going to help my “trying to stay positive” attitude.

I have to admit though; I can tell I’ve been slacking a bit the past couple of weeks. I have fallen in love with the crunch of Special K Ranch Chips!!  BAD CARBS BAD!!!

I have to get back on the right track and really try harder. Next week will be better!!! However, so far a total loss of

38.2lbs

Have a great weekend peeps!

Two Months Post-Op

Two months…Wow! What a ride it has been so far. I would like to be able to say that this is the best thing I could have done and I don’t regret it for a second. I feel like I will be able to say that one day. There are still days that I question my decision…it’s that pesky food addiction thing that gets in my way some days.

I had a training course to attend yesterday for my job with some co-workers that I don’t get to see very often. They all know I had surgery and they had plenty of questions for me. I don’t mind questions, but I found myself telling them about all the things you can’t have or can’t do. I realized just how negative I was being. I shouldn’t be negative. I knew all of these things going into surgery. This was my decision. There are some people around me daily that seem to remind me of the negative side, they just don’t get the positive side of why I chose this for myself. Sometime I wonder if it is just their own insecurities.

I decided this morning that I am done with the negative attitude. My crazy mind just feeds on it and it’s not healthy. I could be sabotaging myself and I can’t let that happen.  I feel great physically. I love going to the gym, it always puts me in a better mood. I sleep like a rock every night.  I’m no longer a diabetic. I’ve lost just over 37 pounds….in 2 months!! I have changed drastically in two months. I know I have a long road ahead of me but I’ll get there.