Friday, August 23, 2013

Day 350 Post Op

My 1 year Surgiversary is quickly approaching!! I have faced the fact that I will not be at goal, which is okay. However, even with all the DRAMA I have surrounding my life right now; I managed to lose this week. How? I have no idea because I have been basically stuffing my face with slider foods and have only been to the gym twice in the last two weeks… NOT GOOD! Today’s weigh-in was 162.1lbs. A loss of 2.3lbs this week and a total loss so far of 107.2lbs!!! I now have 17.1lbs to lose to reach my ultimate goal of 145! I did look up my BMI today just to check…my starting BMI at surgery was 44, my BMI today is 27! LOVE IT!! I appreciate all the support I have received and I know I will get there and things at home will calm down. And as soon as we get back into some kind of routine; I can hit it hard :)

Friday, August 16, 2013

11 Months Post-Op

I haven’t posted in so long. I was just going to wait until my 1 year surgiversary but there has been so many things going on in my life, I felt I needed to write about it. I am 11 months post op now. I haven’t reached my goal yet but I am slowly and surely going to get there. I have lost a total of 105lbs. I have 20lbs more to lose. I’ll get there! I feel good physically. I am physically a completely different person now. I have energy and I’m able to do so much more with so less effort. It’s an awesome feeling!! I still struggle with my fat brain. It wants to eat the wrong things; it wants to tell me that my loose skin is hideous and that I am still that fat and insecure girl. I listen much less then I used to though  I have been dealing with a lot of stress lately. My husband and I have separated. We had serious problems prior to my weight loss and he wasn’t too thrilled about me having surgery anyway. I think a lot had to do with his insecurities in that we had a big age gap between us (me being the younger one). It was my decision and a very difficult one. I had stayed in the marriage because of our precious little boy. However, I didn’t feel like it was fair to any of us for him to be raised in a home where it was always stressful, tense and his parents were not happy. It has been hard on all of us. However, my main concern and priority is with my little guy that he adjusts well and knows that not only is this not his fault but that both his parents love and adore him and will take care of him. He is only 4 and he’s slowly coming around. We have good and bad days. Due to everything going on, I haven’t been hitting the gym like I was. I know I will get there. I have been attending one or two Zumba classes a week…I LOVE Zumba!! I know my fluid and protein consumption hasn’t been as great as they have been. Stress definitely has an effect on my sleeve. I promised myself that I wouldn’t let this discourage me or sabotage all that I have worked for. So, I am going to pay more attention…for a few weeks I was using My Fitness Pal, which helped me a lot. Got to get back on that! I also have my year follow-up with my surgeon on September 4th. I can’t wait!!! I’ll update and keep you posted how it goes. Take Care guys!!