tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3323953304011279962024-03-05T10:09:15.295-05:00Christy's VSG JourneyChristyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.comBlogger43125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-18359299301010968262016-08-01T15:37:00.000-04:002016-08-01T15:42:40.641-04:00The truth hurts...<br />
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<span style="font-family: "calibri"; font-size: small;">I don’t even know if I can write this. Just the thoughts of
it and tears start rolling. I wish I had some time back…I wish so many things.
But here I am 3 years and 11 months post op and out of the 120+lbs I lost from
having VSG in September of 2012…I have gained most likely 80lbs back…if not
more. I really don’t want to step on the scale. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">That’s right…not 10, 15, 20 or even 50lbs but the BIG OLE
8-0!!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Regain is life, it’s bound to happen. But THIS regain is
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I saw it coming!! I didn’t just wake up one morning and I
was 80lbs heavier. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is no one’s fault
but my own. I can sit here and write all kinds of excuses but I’m not. For
months now, I have told myself…I will start back tomorrow. I will track my
foods, drink shakes and lots of water. No more bread, pasta, sweets, etc.
Tomorrow never comes and if it does, I have failed miserably before the day has
ended. What happened to that determination? I was sick and tired of being sick
and tired. Now here I am sick and tired of being sick and tired all over again.
Everything aches, no energy. Having feelings of hopelessness, depression and
anxiety all over again. You’d think every time I packed away another size of
clothing…not to go down but to go up a size. It would have hit me. When I was
at the doctor and stepped on that scale and the first number that I worked so
hard for to become a 1 to turn back into a 2. That should have been the point
where I said I will not let this happen to me. However, I didn’t change a
thing. I continued down that slippery slope. I’m an addict; weight loss surgery
didn’t change that. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I have gotten to wear I hate going places where I see people
I know. I hate having to find something to wear. I see the looks I am given by
those who saw me change for the better to be right back where I was. I know
comments are made as to why would I let myself gain it back…there is not a day
I don’t think the same thing. There is not a day or even a moment in the day my
mind is not on my weight and this battle I am facing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I am not writing this because I have an answer of what to do.
I really don’t have an answer. My sleeve was my tool…my answer! I know it’s
there. I do feel restriction when I eat what I am supposed to. But I have
abused my sleeve so much. All we go through as wls patients and I took
advantage of the opportunity I was given. I know there is no finish line. I am
in a lifelong battle of food addiction. When I had reached under my goal of
145, my mind was not there. I didn’t see it. Now if I look at a picture of me at
my lowest weight…which I rarely do anymore…I see it! I don’t have a clue how I
am going to get back to there but I DO KNOW…I have got to give it my all to
try. What I do know is I can’t keep on like this. </span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-77900676738361496262013-10-15T15:32:00.001-04:002013-10-15T15:48:25.582-04:001 Year Post Op...catching up!<p>I was actually 1 year post op over a month ago. Been cutting back on some expenses since it's just me and my little guy now, so I turned off my internet at home. Then my browser is so out dated at work, Blogger won't work anymore. So, I'm blogging via my cell...bare with me!! </p>
<p>Here I am 13 months post op. I had gotten to a weigh in of <b>159</b> now I'm back at <b>161</b>. I've been 161 for a while now. It could be worse, I could be gaining more. I have only been to the gym a handful of times since my separation. I decided though that I will not let this transition hold me back from my goal. I have 16lbs to lose to meet goal and I'm gonna get there! I owe it to myself. Yesterday, I went back to the gym yesterday and it felt incredible. Considering it had been so long (<b>three</b> <b>weeks</b>!!) I was proud of myself. <br></p>
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I have faced the fact that I will not be at goal, which is okay. However, even with all the DRAMA I have surrounding my life right now; I managed to lose this week. How? I have no idea because I have been basically stuffing my face with slider foods and have only been to the gym twice in the last two weeks… NOT GOOD! Today’s weigh-in was 162.1lbs. A loss of 2.3lbs this week and a total loss so far of 107.2lbs!!! I now have 17.1lbs to lose to reach my ultimate goal of 145! I did look up my BMI today just to check…my starting BMI at surgery was 44, my BMI today is 27! LOVE IT!! I appreciate all the support I have received and I know I will get there and things at home will calm down. And as soon as we get back into some kind of routine; I can hit it hard :) Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-54948177222420411952013-08-16T13:15:00.002-04:002013-08-16T13:15:33.310-04:0011 Months Post-OpI haven’t posted in so long. I was just going to wait until my 1 year surgiversary but there has been so many things going on in my life, I felt I needed to write about it. I am 11 months post op now. I haven’t reached my goal yet but I am slowly and surely going to get there. I have lost a total of 105lbs. I have 20lbs more to lose. I’ll get there! I feel good physically. I am physically a completely different person now. I have energy and I’m able to do so much more with so less effort. It’s an awesome feeling!! I still struggle with my fat brain. It wants to eat the wrong things; it wants to tell me that my loose skin is hideous and that I am still that fat and insecure girl. I listen much less then I used to though I have been dealing with a lot of stress lately. My husband and I have separated. We had serious problems prior to my weight loss and he wasn’t too thrilled about me having surgery anyway. I think a lot had to do with his insecurities in that we had a big age gap between us (me being the younger one). It was my decision and a very difficult one. I had stayed in the marriage because of our precious little boy. However, I didn’t feel like it was fair to any of us for him to be raised in a home where it was always stressful, tense and his parents were not happy. It has been hard on all of us. However, my main concern and priority is with my little guy that he adjusts well and knows that not only is this not his fault but that both his parents love and adore him and will take care of him. He is only 4 and he’s slowly coming around. We have good and bad days. Due to everything going on, I haven’t been hitting the gym like I was. I know I will get there. I have been attending one or two Zumba classes a week…I LOVE Zumba!! I know my fluid and protein consumption hasn’t been as great as they have been. Stress definitely has an effect on my sleeve. I promised myself that I wouldn’t let this discourage me or sabotage all that I have worked for. So, I am going to pay more attention…for a few weeks I was using My Fitness Pal, which helped me a lot. Got to get back on that! I also have my year follow-up with my surgeon on September 4th. I can’t wait!!! I’ll update and keep you posted how it goes. Take Care guys!! Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-20908136392054542352013-07-11T14:56:00.001-04:002013-07-11T14:56:57.276-04:0010 months Post-op<p>I haven't posted in a while. I've been doing well though. The weight loss had slowed quite a bit, however I have reached a goal if 100lbs lost. Hope everyone is well. I'll post again soon! :)</p>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Today is my 9 month Surgiversary! YAY!! So, I thought I would make some lists. First, a list of all the Non-Scale Victories I have had over the last 9 months (well, as many as I can remember). Thankfully, I have had many! Secondly, a list of the challenges and struggles I face since making this life changing decision. Lastly, I wanted to make a list of my goals for the next few months coming up to my 1 year anniversary.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">First of all, I did my usual Friday morning weigh-in. For the last couple of weeks I have stayed the same (that is better than a gain any day!) <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 18pt;">To hit my goal of <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">145lbs</b>.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I have so many people telling me that I would be too skinny if I lost 30 more pounds. I don’t think so; maybe they are just trying to be nice. I look so very different with clothes on then clothes off <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(Thank You Spanx, I Love You!!)</i> I most definitely have 30 more pounds to lose!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">There were many days after surgery that I thought to myself “What did I do??” It’s normal! As I have read and heard from other wls patients. There is no finish line. This is a life changing decision and I can say that I would do it all again tomorrow!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-54820340601355460782013-04-26T11:00:00.002-04:002013-04-26T11:00:25.770-04:0034 weeks Post-op<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Almost 8 months…wow it’s hard to comprehend. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday that I was on my way to the hospital for surgery then other times it feels like I have been on this journey forever. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There are so many wonderful changes happening. More energy, more outgoing, smaller sizes, having fun exercising; it’s like a whole new world is opening up to me. I read about a Color Vibe 5K run coming near my home in June. I would love to be a part of it. I haven’t been running but just the thoughts of being able to excite me. I may end up just volunteering at this one; I think that would be loads of fun too. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">A year ago, I was at a low, I couldn’t walk to the mailbox without being out of breath. I would walk into the house after a day at work and just want to eat and go to bed. I was exhausted. Don’t get me wrong life is not all roses but I have made some drastic changes. I have focused on the things I have control over…ME! Now, I’m energized! I’m sitting on go all the time. It’s simply an amazing feeling.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I was asked the other day if I still got nervous when it was time to step on the scale. Of course I do! I also keep in mind that the scale can also only tell me one thing. My weight; the scale cannot tell me how I physically feel. There have been quite a few times since surgery, I have stepped on the scale and it is the same as the week before and even a couple times be a gain from the week before. I try my best not to let it discourage me but inspire me to work even harder.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then those days that it’s time to weigh in and I have had a loss. I feel blessed; so very fortunate that I had the opportunity to take this path to better health. Today was one of those days. I stepped on the scale this morning and I had a 2.2lb loss this week. 180.6lbs! I couldn’t be happier. I couldn’t even envision weighing 180lbs a year ago. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I know this journey is difficult and when I am feeling down and I want to give in to those mind games. I just remember myself prior to surgery and how lost I felt then. How uncomfortable I was in my own skin. Then I look at now, it’s not always easy to see what others see. My mind is still having issues catching up with my body. However, I sit back and take a few quiet moments and realize I am a different person now. I am in control of myself. I succeed because I choose to.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-71635250464404179112013-04-19T11:21:00.005-04:002013-04-19T11:21:55.127-04:00Catching Up....7 months Post-Op<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Hi folks! Wow!! I haven’t posted since March 12<sup>th</sup>?? What’s up with that! It seems like time just flies by lately. I have also made a page on FB, and been involved with different support groups there. So, if you are on FB check it out. <a href="http://www.facebook.com/ChristysVsgJourney">www.facebook.com/ChristysVsgJourney</a><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">So…since my last post, we had my little man’s 4<sup>th</sup> Birthday. I did not eat a cupcake (but wanted one of course). Easter, I baked a 7 layer chocolate cake…did not eat any!! I did partake in a few pieces of candy which took me days to get over those sugar cravings. I will not make that mistake again! Then my sister-in-law’s birthday at the Cheesecake Factory…Seriously?!? I got through it though. NO cheesecake for me </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"> I had the grilled Salmon and steamed asparagus… I treated myself to Starbucks afterward. Yes, that is correct I said Starbucks, I have broken one rule of WLS. <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Hi, my name is Christy and I am an addict, a caffeine addict!</i></b> We own a Keurig and I was being a good little sleeve patient and buying the decaf brands for myself. Then it was the night of Thanksgiving and we were hitting all the sales at midnight. I make a cup of regular…I felt the jolt and I loved it. A regular here, a regular there, it didn’t take long until I was only drinking decaf at night. Then one evening after a support group meeting stopping at Starbucks….Grande medium roast with a shot of espresso, room for cream…I am an addict. I must have coffee and the good stuff! </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I am now 7 months and 2 weeks post op. My weigh in this morning was at 182.8. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For a total loss of 86.5lbs!! At my last post I weighed in at 189.9 (six month check-up) as you can tell I had a small loss this past month. For a couple weeks, a complete stand still. That is a scary feeling!!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have noticed a few new things in the last month. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Eating is getting easier. I have not cared for steak since surgery until recently. It’s good to me now and the consistency is easier for me to handle. It has been difficult for me to tolerate the consistency of Greek yogurt so I just stopped trying for a long time. I started back again recently and now, it’s actually good to me. I mix in a bit of Special K protein plus cereal to give it some crunch, which seems to help too. Noticing a pattern here…consistency of foods seem to be a big thing for me. I have been trying my best to make sure I am getting all the protein required daily. I have kept it a lean meat (grilled, baked or broiled) and a steamed veggie for an evening meal. I go to the gym when I leave work and pick up my little guy (they have child care there too) and after the workout and I get home to cook, I am totally ready to eat! As far as liquids, I am throwing them back like it’s nobody’s business! I have been getting 100+ozs a day. I can tell a huge difference there!! Loving the crystal light liquid…before the crystal light packets would give me killer indigestion but the liquid doesn’t bother me at all! </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Still in a size 14…some are loose but most fit just right. Some large tops some XL. I did try on a size large skirt the other day. That felt awesome!! </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"> I have to stop myself from buying clothes. I have been very fortunate that my Mom wears a 14 with large and xlarge. So, I have been able to raid her closet ;) Thanks Mom </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">!!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Still working to my next goal of 100lbs loss by Memorial Day, I made this goal when I reached Onederland so I’m sticking with it. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-50924614090006484872013-03-12T14:00:00.000-04:002013-03-12T14:27:26.138-04:006 Month Follow-Up...<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I had such an incredible day yesterday. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had my 6 month follow-up with my surgeon and it made my day. No, not just my day…it made this last 6 months totally worth it!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">First off, I always weigh in on the morning I am going to visit the doctor. I want to compare scales. So, yesterday still half asleep; I stepped on my scale. 189.9? Is that even possible? Last Thursday, on my 6 month Anniversary I weighed 192.6. Heck yeah it’s possible! I have been sweating my ass off at the gym, pushing fluids like crazy and being extra careful with the foods I have been eating. What better feeling then to break into the 180’s on my follow-up day! I appointment was that afternoon so I was well prepared not to weigh 189.9. But I DID! <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">My surgeon’s PA, Robin came in the room and asked, “Just how far out from surgery are you?” I said, “Six months, why?” Then she says, “80 pounds? DAMN!!” I had the biggest smile of my face. I told her it didn’t even seem real at times. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Sometimes I catch glimpses of myself walking by a mirror or window and I do a double take. Then other times when I am trying to look at myself I don’t see that much of a difference. I see the sagging here, cellulite there…all the yucky stuff. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m sure I have some form of body dysmorphia going on. Any who…Robin asked about my protein and liquid amounts, she was overall very pleased. Then out of the blue says she would like for me to consider coming to speak at one of the Weight Loss Surgery Seminars that pre-op patients have to attend. I am thinking…What?? Me?? The FAT girl come talk to others about losing weight?? She said she needed success stories to help new patients relate and I was definitely a success story. I told her I would consider it and let her know. That scares the crap out of me but in another way I think it would be good for me. It is an honor to be asked and it would be something totally out of my character. Breaking out of the comfort zone is what this journey is mostly about for me. Food can no longer be my comfort. Although there are still days when all I want is some food to comfort me. Food is not a solution to any of my problems except hunger. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I once felt so self-conscience at the gym. I didn’t want to do anything to draw attention to myself. I would get on the stationary bike at the back or the treadmill at the back. Now, I could care less. I went in the other day and all the treadmills were taken and lined up in front of the treadmills are the ellipticals. Not a soul on the ellipticals. I got right up there, right in the middle of the row. I would have NEVER done that before. This journey is about me, no one else. I can’t care about what other may say or may think about me. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">For the first time in my life I think I can honestly say; I am not ashamed of myself and my appearance. I still have times that I feel uneasy about wearing certain things, but I’m getting better with that. I am not finished losing. I am not where I want to be yet, but I am so far from where I once was.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-36122115974123603152013-03-07T09:07:00.001-05:002013-03-07T09:07:36.783-05:00Happy Surgiversary to Me!!<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Today is my 6 Month Surgiversary!! Although I usually weigh on Friday mornings; I decided it was only proper to do it today….<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">For a total loss of </span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 24pt;">76.7lbs!!! </span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I can feel those 180’s!!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I will take that for 6 months out </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"> I go back on Monday to by Surgeon for a follow-up I hope he will be as thrilled as I am.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I’m feeling great today! Two weeks ago I made it into Onederland, then last week I had yet another stall. I hadn’t been able to make it to the gym but once a week for a couple weeks. However, after this last stall I went to the gym and sweated my butt off Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday. I’m also going today. I am in love with the elliptical. That thing is no joke! There is not a part of my body this week that isn’t sore AND I love it!! Ya know what they say…<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I also had a HUGE NSV this week…I have been going to the gym since 6 weeks out of surgery. I’m now at 23 weeks (5 months yesterday). I have done the bike, treadmill, stair climber and all kinds of weight machines. I have stared at the elliptical. It intimidated me so much. I got on it for like 30 seconds when one of the trainers was showing me around on my first day. It feels so unnatural. However…Wednesday night…I DID IT! I was doing my usual mile on the treadmill before heading to the weights and I decided. I would get on and try 10 minutes. I got on, entered my weight, manual setting and entered 10 mins. It was a rough start, took me a few to get a good rhythm going but when I did. I loved it! Boy, I was sweating and for the last two days the muscles in my legs have been screaming!! I can’t wait to go back and keep working at it. </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 14pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Footlight MT Light'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-4624391361416867792013-01-28T14:03:00.002-05:002013-01-28T14:03:08.593-05:00A Love/Hate Relationship...<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">The love part…I love my sleeve, there is absolutely NO way I could have lost 68lbs in the last 4 ½ months (or ever…let’s get serious) without my sleeve. It has literally saved my life. My life is no longer controlled by my size. Don’t get me wrong…I am far from slim and trim but 68lbs less is major! <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Footlight MT Light','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">The hate part….I hate my sleeve. We all have stress daily in our lives and on most days I can totally handle it. Then there are those days when I want to stuff my face until the stress, hurt, disappointment and sorrows melt away. That was my old life and there are days I miss the hell out of it. It is totally the truth that WLS changes your body…not your mind. With that said I come right back to the love part.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-148446022173141062013-01-22T16:19:00.003-05:002013-01-22T16:19:33.791-05:0019 Weeks Post-OpQuick update!! <br />
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Have a great one!! :))Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-6753864438600334612013-01-11T09:17:00.002-05:002013-01-11T09:17:44.754-05:004 months Post-Op UpdateQuick update, I haven't posted in such a long time. The last time was right before Christmas and I weighed in at 212.7. Luckily I managed to lose over the holidays. This morning's weigh in was 207.6....Onederland is taking FOREVER!! But I'm headed in the right direction. So far a total loss of <br />
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Hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Years. It's been a challenge getting back in the routine. But I'm glad the holidays are behind us. Going to be a beautiful weekend of 70's around here so looking forward to getting outside for some sunshine. :)<br />
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Have a great weekend!!!Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-64721419890086451912012-12-23T12:00:00.001-05:002012-12-23T12:00:15.129-05:0015 weeks Post-Op & Christmas TimeIt's about that time...tomorrow is Christmas Eve!! It's been super busy trying to get everything done and attending holiday gathering. I haven't been to the gym once this week... heading back next week though. It's gonna kick my butt I know. I missed posting about last week's weigh-in but if I recall I had a loss of 1.2lbs. This week was much better. Friday's weigh-in was 212.7 last time I posted was 216.8 for a total loss over the last two weeks of 4.1lbs!! I'm good with that! Which brings me to a total loss of <br />
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We had a gathering last night with my husband's family. I ate just a little chili and was full. As the night went on the goodies (sweets) where calling my name and I tried a few, just a bite or two of a few things. Chocolate covered strawberries...OMG!!! It's basically fruit, right? haha at least that's how my step-daughter justified it for me. I had such a sugar high last night, it took me forever to go to sleep. I should have jumped on the treadmill...that didn't happen either. Oh well, it's Christmas and I had a treat...now back to taking care of me. <br />
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-42833503066229618152012-12-11T09:10:00.004-05:002012-12-11T09:11:44.044-05:0013 Weeks Post-OpJust a quick update...it's been super busy getting ready for Christmas...<br />
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-39926475486975106252012-11-24T09:40:00.002-05:002012-11-24T09:40:39.696-05:0011 weeks Post-Op, Thanksgiving and Pics!So, I'm a day late for my update but it has been crazy around here. We had Thanksgiving at my Mom's house. I cooked my first turkey and it was delish! I ate turkey, ham, mashed potatoes, dressing, deviled egg, cranberry sauce...granted only about 1-2 bites of each. I was stuffed! <br />
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My Mom, brother, sister-in-law and I ventured out for "Black Friday" about 7:30pm Thursday and got back at 4am Friday morning. So, I was like a zombie all day yesterday. And to top it off, By midnight, I knew I was getting sick. I now have a cold. This is the first time I've been sick since surgery. I want nothing but coffee...it sooths my throat. No appetite at all. Good in a way...bad for reaching protein goals. Fluid goals...not a problem.<br />
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On to the numbers...last week I weighed in at 227. Yesterday I weighed in at 222.4!! Woo Hoo!! A loss this week of 4.6lbs!! Which brings me to a total loss of...<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">46.9lbs!!!!</span></div>
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So, Thursday afternoon I did something I never let anybody do, take a body shot of my with my permission. I tried to find another picture as a comparison so I looked through and found one my husband took of me last Christmas. Here it goes...</div>
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Christmas 2011 269lbs...NO ONE has ever seen this picture!</div>
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Thanksgiving 2012 223lbs I actually posted this on my facebook!</div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-18893179136110778422012-11-16T15:10:00.001-05:002012-11-16T15:10:40.144-05:0010 Weeks Post-Op<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">This week I have felt so much better. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was able to be more consistent going to the gym and I had better scale results this week…YAY!!! NO stalls. This morning I weighed in at 227.0 compared to last Friday of 231.1. So, I had a loss this week of 4.1 lbs. A total loss so far of…<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I am inching closer to my goal of being in ONEderland by 2013!!! Sure hope I make it.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I also did so much better this week on the evil crunchy carb habit. Oh how I CRAVE salty, savory crunchiness. Some people say out of sight, out of mind. Not here…it STAYS on my mind but I say, out of sight, out of mouth!! hehe<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I find that I have weeks where nothing tastes good at all. I eat only because I have to. Then all of a sudden I will eat something and it tastes wonderful. Then maybe the next day or the day after I try it food again and YUCK. Does anyone else experience the taste bud crazies?? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">Also, while I am eating and then for about an hour or so afterwards I have this annoying gurgling sound coming from by throat and my esophagus. It can get a little embarrassing due to it can get loud. Anyone else??<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">Oh yeah….I’m so excited!! I’m going to see Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2 this weekend!! I can’t wait </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 12pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-65525580890627655382012-11-09T10:24:00.002-05:002012-11-09T10:24:42.417-05:009 weeks Post-Op...Gotta get it in gear!!<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">Not much to report this week, still having some of the same struggles. But trying to be more positive and just go with the flow. Had another (very) small loss this week…only .5lb. Yikes! I hope I am not at a stall!! A stall at this point is not going to help my “trying to stay positive” attitude. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I have to admit though; I can tell I’ve been slacking a bit the past couple of weeks. I have fallen in love with the crunch of Special K Ranch Chips!! <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>BAD CARBS BAD!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I have to get back on the right track and really try harder. </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: red; font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 18pt;">Next week will be better!!!</span></b><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;"> However, so far a total loss of <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-64227753460062720742012-11-06T09:27:00.002-05:002012-11-06T09:27:42.590-05:00Two Months Post-Op<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">Two months…Wow! What a ride it has been so far. I would like to be able to say that this is the best thing I could have done and I don’t regret it for a second. I feel like I will be able to say that one day. There are still days that I question my decision…it’s that pesky food addiction thing that gets in my way some days. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I had a training course to attend yesterday for my job with some co-workers that I don’t get to see very often. They all know I had surgery and they had plenty of questions for me. I don’t mind questions, but I found myself telling them about all the things you can’t have or can’t do. I realized just how negative I was being. I shouldn’t be negative. I knew all of these things going into surgery. This was my decision. There are some people around me daily that seem to remind me of the negative side, they just don’t get the positive side of why I chose this for myself. Sometime I wonder if it is just their own insecurities. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">I decided this morning that I am done with the negative attitude. My crazy mind just feeds on it and it’s not healthy. I could be sabotaging myself and I can’t let that happen. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel great physically. I love going to the gym, it always puts me in a better mood. I sleep like a rock every night. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m no longer a diabetic. I’ve lost just over 37 pounds….in 2 months!! I have changed drastically in two months. I know I have a long road ahead of me but I’ll get there.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">Lots of things going on this week….first the numbers! I didn’t weigh in last Friday since I had a Dr appt. on Wednesday, so back on track this week. This week (and a half) weigh-in showed a loss of 4.3lbs. For a total loss of ...<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">As far as my protein and water intake…I know I need more! Yesterday was awful as far as getting in what I needed. My little boy is sick so, taking him to the doctor yesterday, I got in a little breakfast. Came home by lunch cooked us some chicken with some broccoli and cheese. I ate a little, still very little actually tastes good to me. It sounds good and looks good but when I start eating…not so much. Then like a bad WLS patient, I didn’t eat anything else yesterday until I got home from Support Group at 9pm. Because of my little man being sick, I missed a couple days at the gym. I felt completely guilty but my little man being well is my #1 priority.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">OH!! I did have the most A-MAZ-ING NSV this past weekend! My clothes are huge, right?! So, I had this meeting coming up at work and I have to go to the Division Office and with colder weather approaching, I wanted to look decent, not like I was wearing a tent. I was in Belk and they had moved the plus size section. I couldn’t find it anywhere and I never like to ask where it is…it’s just embarrassing that I have to say it out loud. So, I wondered over to the “regular people” racks. I have been looking for a black cardigan. I still have some sleeveless tops that I can get by with a smaller cardigan. So, I find one. I say what the heck let me try this on. I NEVER expected it to fit; I was totally prepared for it not to. BUT!!! It fit! An XL! That is HUGE for me. I don’t even remember the last time I wore something from the missy’s section. It had to be in High School and for a short amount of time. Then I got brave. I grabbed some pants off the rack and headed into the dressing room. An 18 fit perfect and not an 18W either!! I ended up buying two sweaters and two pairs of dress pants. So much better than my 2X-3X and my 22W/24W that I had worn forever. Honestly, that is the first time since surgery I have felt proud of myself. I have been excited about losing and seeing my clothes getting bigger, although I don’t really see it when I look in the mirror. This is working, slowly but surely!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;">So, this weekend I promised my little man we would carve a pumpkin, I don’t ever remembering doing that before so this should be interesting. I like to see him excited about things, it makes me excited. This is the first year that he actually gets the whole trick or treat thing. He is going to be Capt. America (he is super hero crazy). I’ll post a pic next week and possibly get in one of ours truly. </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 12pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 12pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-81565978627777280192012-10-18T09:03:00.001-04:002012-10-18T09:03:31.171-04:006 week Post-Op Appt<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Yesterday afternoon was my 6 week post-op appt. I went in stepped on the scale…so happy!! Since my normal weigh-in last Friday; I had lost another 3.2lbs! That is a total loss of…<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Christyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600261725637838180noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332395330401127996.post-72161301079273414252012-10-16T13:18:00.002-04:002012-10-16T13:18:47.673-04:00Roller Coaster Ride of Emotions<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I have been reading a lot about emotions after bariatric surgery. I have been on a roller coaster ride of emotions in the last couple of weeks. I know we all deal with emotions after having WLS to a certain degree. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I’m over 5 weeks out from surgery and I’ve lost just over 30lbs! Going to the gym has given me a lot more energy than I can ever remember having. My back pain has diminished to the point that I hardly have any pain at all. I no longer have Type II Diabetes. I saw several people over the weekend that I haven’t seen since before surgery or not since right after surgery. I got so many compliments. Everyone thought I was looking well and could tell that I had lost weight. Everyone knows about my surgery, if they don’t and they ask what I am doing, I’ll tell them. Sometimes it’s a bit of a drawback. Some people think that you have surgery and BAM you’re skinny and the weight just melts off. Not even close! However, I have only had positive feedback and I don’t regret letting it be known.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">With all the positive feedback and with my progress, you would think that I should be ecstatic. So, why do I feel down a lot of the time? This feeling of depravation is overwhelming. I realize that it’s not physical, physically I feel great most days. It’s all mental. This weekend I found myself doubting that I made the right decision with having this surgery. Why, because of food? That seems so silly to me. Do I really have this intense relationship with eating? The answer is, yes! Anytime I was upset, bored, lonely, etc…I ate whatever and however much I wanted to make me feel “fulfilled”. Eating filled whatever void I was feeling. I can’t physically do that anymore. So, what do I do now? How do I deal with voids now? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">Being around other people eating has just recently started to bother me. I don’t like going to restaurants anymore. Eating is no longer a pleasure to me, it’s a chore. Maybe that is what I am missing, the pleasure of eating…I feel so abnormal eating. Will I ever sit down to a meal and feel normal? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman','serif'; font-size: 14pt;">I know this post seems like I just ungrateful for this opportunity to become a healthy person. I’m very grateful though, I am very happy with all my progress. I hoping the part of my brain that is making me ride this roller coaster can soon catch up with the rest of me. If you know me, you know, I hate roller coasters! <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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